anecdote.

daze.sorrow.chaotic.sorry.infelicitous.complex.stun.uncertain.hope.enigma.

I could not think of any other words.

I was biting my lips, holding my breathe, trying not to blink, hoping for no tears.

Yes, there was no tears.

I questioned myself. This is my decision. Not his. Would I regret it, one day?

Hari yang menusuk kalbu. Terpaku. Terpana. Terpinga.

Seperti Dia sudah merancang buat aku.

Seolah Dia sengaja menguji kecekalan hati kering aku.

I wish I could nestle into his arms again.

But there is someone else.

Someone who needs to nestle in my arms more than I needed his.

Thence I must be stiff.

I must be numb.

I must be insensitive.

I must rejoice.

This is destiny I opted.



.............................. Which I chose the path. The path closer to my ill father.